12/2/09

It's getting lesser for me to want to really let go myself now. Yesterday, I went out at 4am because I was too sad after reading the message sent by someone. I felt really really upset and disappointed with myself. It's because I'm no more the talented and perfect person, everyone expect me to be. I feel sad letting everyone down, especially my dear.

I came home, today at 3pm. I was wondering around then I went to my friend's house to sleep. i feel really lost. Even Tom said that, "Su Ling, you're lost."

I'm applying to go for studies this year. I bought my first car, although it's secondhand. I'm buying my first house, it's not confirmed yet because the house is a dream house. I hope I can get the house. I love the house.

I want to have a family. Can anyone give me a family? Please.

=?Enchanted?=

11/2/09

Today, some of my friends said that I've changed. Not only my look but also the way I talk. They say that I'm not that pushy anymore. Other than that, I'm no more that stubborn and willing to listen.

I've got compliments and I'm happy about it, just that, that's not the happiness I wanted.

I'm still available on Valentine's.. What to do? I really want to know what to do. I'm still waiting for my dear to ask me out... Please ask me out...

I've got lots of invitations but not yet from my dear...

=?Enchanted?=

Life is a Gift

There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind.

She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her.

She told her boyfriend, 'If I could only see the world, I will marry you.'

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend.

He asked her,'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?'

The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn't expected that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him.

Her boyfriend left her in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying: 'Take good care of your eyes, my dear; for before they were yours, they were mine.'

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This is how the human brain often works when our status changes.
Only a very few remember what life was like before, and who was always by their side in the most painful situations.

Life Is a Gift

Today before you say an unkind word - Think of someone who can't speak.

Before you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someone who has nothing to eat.

Before you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone who's crying out to GOD for a companion.

Today before you complain about life - Think of someone who went too early to heaven.

Before you complain about your children - Think of someone who desires children but they're barren.

Before you argue about your dirty house someone didn't clean or sweep - Think of the people who are living in the streets.

Before whining about the distance you drive- Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.

And when you are tired and complain about your job - Think of the unemployed, the disabled, and those who wish they had your job.

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another - Remember that not one of us is without sin and we all answer to one MAKER.

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down -
Put a smile on your face and thank GOD you're alive and still around.

08/2/09

Can you differentiate love and like?

When you like someone, you want to be with him always because he brings you happiness; when he leaves you, you will miss him, think of him and you'll smile then carry on with your life thus hoping to see him the next time.

When you love someone, you want to be together with him because that is a feeling that you miss him like crazy, you're afraid he will feel tortured, afraid that he can't take care of himself; when he leaves you, you will miss him too then you would sigh then think, "i guess how he's living now?" Then you would continue with your life but hope that he comes back to you.

In your eyes,the person you like is like an angel, he can do everything, he can always fulfill your willfulness requirements.

In your eyes, the person you love is like a child, you don't hope that he does anything "great", you just tolerate every funny act he does.

You just hope that the person you like will always be beside you, then in your heart, you may think of the person you love;

You hope that the person you love will be beside you, looking at him, sleeping in front of you freely and relaxed, you will smile and feel really happy.

The person you like, hurt you, you will be angry and you want him to make you smile, then you would forgive him;

The person you love hurt you, you would feel sad alone because you're scared that he would scream at you thus frighten him, you can only smile, look into his eyes and once you saw in his eyes, his regrets and feeling sorry, you will want to lie in his arm, at that moment, you feel as though you have the whole world.

You can like more than one at a time, you hope that many can stay together. However, you realize that the person you love is only him. The only one, and it would never change. You thought you have forgotten him, but it's because you're too busy, no time to think of him.

Towards the person you like, you look into his pros;

Towards the person you love, you look into his shortcomings; if those shortcomings are not something to do with principles, in your eyes, they're cute and incomparable.

Like and love, there's no big difference. However, love starts with like.

One day, when you suddenly realize that the person you like is no more perfect, and his imperfection makes you want to stay on with you longer, you'll feel that he's glowing, compared to others. You're more willing to look at his helpless emotions, don't know if it should be congrats because your relationship has just upgrade.

Admiration is not love nor is it like, when you admire someone while you're committed, you would lose peacefulness.

Some people say, when you love someone, it's tiring. It is true, because you want to be taking care of his everything, you want to be responsible for all his problems so that he wouldn't need to face it alone.

The biggest difference between love and like is most probably, when you're with the person you love, you feel like you're home.

I really don't know what I can do. I don't know if I can still get back to my dear. I really miss him very very very very very very very very much. I feel terribly sad but I don't want him to feel sad. I don't know if he have forgiven me but I hope he still loves me.

My dear, I'm sorry couldn't let you stay with me.

Yesterday, a friend told me that to find a person to date, it's because you like that person but for a guy, when makes them stay on with that person, it's their character.

I guess I have to change so that my dear would forgive me and come back to me.

Thanks for those who have scolded me for the past week about my shortcomings. I'll change and change thoroughly.

Dear, please wait for me, give me some time. Remember that you have to marry me 4 years later. Give me time and a chance. Thanks.

I love you.

=?Enchanted?=