Well, I did my book one for the Fifth time today... Every time, I'll just learn something newer and later.. Today, I've learn about admitting my mistakes and being truthful to myself.
I understand how much I lied to myself till last year, when I started to serve. I strive to be a true Bahai, living in accordance to the Bahai Standard. People thought I was a freak and it's ok because we see things different level. Other than that, it's like everything is just meant to be the way it had been because I choose it to be.
Today, I've decided to be just friends with him; if that's what he wanted. We should show loving kindness to all who may cross our path and he is one of them. Why can't we be just friends? People always say it and it's easy to say.
It's definitely hard to let deeds not words be our adorning but I'm striving for letting deeds to be my adorning. I hope I succeed.
I was really bad in loving someone, that's why my mist wasn't solved. I hope I can love everyone the same way and be who I am meant to me. If I do anything I'm not supposed to, please remind me and tell me. Thanks!!! ^^
=?Enchanted?=
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Please unreaveal my mist...
WHat does it take to know what he thinks? He really think that he's holding me back?
I feel really insecure, like someone is plotting something against me but I'm in the bright, that person in the dark. If there's anything, why can't we just spit it out?
STupid! I hate this feeling. I'm really a truth seeker, I'm afraid that this time, I'll tend to hurt someone, just to find the truth.
Choices are damn stupid because I'm at the road not taken.
Just feel like slapping myself to wake myself up from the dream.
I dreamed of him every night but that's just a dream.
I thought being a princess, people will take care of you but it seems that for Enchanted Princess, it's a never for protection, never for answers, never for love, never for much truth!!
I'm really enchanted but if you think you can break the spell, please don't give me white lie and promises because they'll just crush me harder. I hate being given hopes then were to be smashed and slashed. What's the purpose? Revenging for someone?
Hopeless for love, I hope for humanity being freed from poverty and hunger; I long ro helping people to gain and maintain physical and spiritual balance.
Just hope that, whatever I do, relationships will just fade away. SO MUCH FOR MY HAPPY ENDING!!!!!
=?Enchanted?=
I feel really insecure, like someone is plotting something against me but I'm in the bright, that person in the dark. If there's anything, why can't we just spit it out?
STupid! I hate this feeling. I'm really a truth seeker, I'm afraid that this time, I'll tend to hurt someone, just to find the truth.
Choices are damn stupid because I'm at the road not taken.
Just feel like slapping myself to wake myself up from the dream.
I dreamed of him every night but that's just a dream.
I thought being a princess, people will take care of you but it seems that for Enchanted Princess, it's a never for protection, never for answers, never for love, never for much truth!!
I'm really enchanted but if you think you can break the spell, please don't give me white lie and promises because they'll just crush me harder. I hate being given hopes then were to be smashed and slashed. What's the purpose? Revenging for someone?
Hopeless for love, I hope for humanity being freed from poverty and hunger; I long ro helping people to gain and maintain physical and spiritual balance.
Just hope that, whatever I do, relationships will just fade away. SO MUCH FOR MY HAPPY ENDING!!!!!
=?Enchanted?=
Monday, March 10, 2008
Confidence...
Today, I came across myself and realized that I'm lacking of my confidence each day passes by... I don't know why. I'll feel less confidant when I am lack of answers to my questions.
Too many questions nowadays, too little answers. My weight's dropping, shape's gaining, I feel happy but I feel angry with myself as I just couldn't get those answers.
Why can't life be just simple and on the basics? It just need to be our heart in it.
I've put my heart, soul and life in, what about you?
=?Enchanted?=
Too many questions nowadays, too little answers. My weight's dropping, shape's gaining, I feel happy but I feel angry with myself as I just couldn't get those answers.
Why can't life be just simple and on the basics? It just need to be our heart in it.
I've put my heart, soul and life in, what about you?
=?Enchanted?=
Sunday, March 9, 2008
What is "gifted"?
I've been pondering why do I know so many things? Am I meant to be different from others or I'm just thinking too much? Why is people always saying that I'm talented and gifted?
I remember a very successful scientist saying that he wasn't a genius, he was just someone who worked really hard to be who he want and what he was meant to be. Sometimes, as a human, we always forget what we're meant for while some don't even know the reason.
Firstly, why were we created? Have you ever ponder about that in your day dreaming period? Well, I seems to have the correct answer but it's not from me, it's from the words of God. We are created to know God and to worship God. I may sound holy but it's true.
Back to the topic, what is "gifted"? Is it what we are created to do or what we strive to do? Wanna have a guess first?
It's actually how much you tend to strive. For me, I can sing well now not because I'm gifted but I strive to learn to empower singing skills. All who grew up with me knew how bad my singing was 2 years ago, it make people wanna run and hide but now?
Another good exampler is Akrit Singh, the seven year old genius. He's not a born genius. He's just focus on what he tend to do and deepen as much as he can, in his field of interest - medical.
Anyone could be a genius but it's up to how much we strive to be deepen in our field of interest. I'm always learning but I have high expectations on myself. I know I can do it. It's just a matter of time.
Now, I'm giving myself 1 and a half year to achieve my personal dream then proceed to my ambition.
Life is beautiful when we understand that we're like a never ending growing rose as our thorns and buds grow together as if our talents and difficulties.
Cherish your life while you can now and be happy because life is just it's meant to be and everyone is gifted and geniuses in a way. Strive till the end!!
May God Bless you always.
=?Enchanted?=
I remember a very successful scientist saying that he wasn't a genius, he was just someone who worked really hard to be who he want and what he was meant to be. Sometimes, as a human, we always forget what we're meant for while some don't even know the reason.
Firstly, why were we created? Have you ever ponder about that in your day dreaming period? Well, I seems to have the correct answer but it's not from me, it's from the words of God. We are created to know God and to worship God. I may sound holy but it's true.
Back to the topic, what is "gifted"? Is it what we are created to do or what we strive to do? Wanna have a guess first?
It's actually how much you tend to strive. For me, I can sing well now not because I'm gifted but I strive to learn to empower singing skills. All who grew up with me knew how bad my singing was 2 years ago, it make people wanna run and hide but now?
Another good exampler is Akrit Singh, the seven year old genius. He's not a born genius. He's just focus on what he tend to do and deepen as much as he can, in his field of interest - medical.
Anyone could be a genius but it's up to how much we strive to be deepen in our field of interest. I'm always learning but I have high expectations on myself. I know I can do it. It's just a matter of time.
Now, I'm giving myself 1 and a half year to achieve my personal dream then proceed to my ambition.
Life is beautiful when we understand that we're like a never ending growing rose as our thorns and buds grow together as if our talents and difficulties.
Cherish your life while you can now and be happy because life is just it's meant to be and everyone is gifted and geniuses in a way. Strive till the end!!
May God Bless you always.
=?Enchanted?=
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