I hope my dear won't read this because he might feel sad.. I don't wish that he is sad..
That day, I sent him an sms asking if we can celebrate Valentine's together earlier because I'm not going to be around during Valentine's Day. But he say, he don't celebrate Valentine's.
He may not know how much it means to me, I guess.
I love receiving gifts, especially flowers and chocolates because I love roses as it means warmth, chocolate means warmth from inside.
Every year, in fact, everyday, I pray that I can have Valentine's everyday.
14/1/09 it's It's Diary Valentine's. I got it.
14/2/09, I'm going to have no Valentines. T.T
To me, every single Valentine's past, it means greater understanding and deeper love. And the celebration means to celebrate our greater understanding and deeper love.
Yesterday, I wanted so much to meet him but he were to rush home and do tarts. I can't be angry, sad or even jealous because I promised him that I won't do that again. Though I was really missing him a lot but I know this is my promise. I just don't want and can't afford to lose him again. I really can't.
I don't even know if I have the right to insist that I want to see him. I always give him a reason to look for me but to him, it was not urgent enough. I guess I don't know how to spread my urgency of wanting to see him.
Although he broke his promises but I will never break mine.
Although he decided to do things his way but I will never if I would hurt him.
Although he seldom try to ask me what I think but I will never miss a chance to know him more.
Although he don't express his love to me but I know I will love him and only him.
Although he doesn't know that I am still thinking a lot but I know I think so much is because I love him and I'm just feeling insecure and afraid to lose him.
Although he don't know how to express him feelings but I know that one day, he will tell me he love me most.
Although I know that me, being successful in this business, may draw us apart but I have no choice because I want to realize his dreams.
Although I know that he may not know and understand why I always act smart in front of him but he don't know that I just want him to be proud of me.
Although I don't know if I'll be the one for him but I know that he is the one for me.
Although I don't know if he loves me anymore but I know that I will love him, no matter what.
I will have PERSISTENCE, CONSISTENCE and URGENCY.
I will love him, selflessly, continuously and undemanding.
I will love him every second I have and I can breathe.
I will be there for him when he needs me.
I don't know if he can be there for me when he needs me but I can only say that that's all I can say.
=?Enchanted?=
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Spectacular Journal! 17-18/2/09
It was a crazy FUN and it was unbelievable. I couldn't believe that I've got the chance to be part of Dennis Dowell's training. He's unbelievably amazing.
I have learned alot and when I say alot, it really means ALOT!!!
This would be something that's going to drive me somewhere. I know it will.
First Day
It was a fun day of being able to sit near the stage and see everything there that is driving me somewhere. I was in Katherine Yiu and Felan Yu's training. They were school teachers that had a dreams, dreams that wouldn't come true when they had their house on morgage and everything was in instalment. They taught me to be humble, thank your sponsor, be grateful, thankful. Be persistent, consistent and have urgency. I have to make it because it's either I do or die in the biz.
At night, at the cartoon party, I played my role being a cartoon and together we had party, like CRAZEEEESSSSSSSS!! I danced like I never danced and I walked bare footed for 20 minutes with WENDY!! It was a crazy night.
I slept at 4.30am after I completed my 50 reasons to do Herbalife. I did my quota, talk to new people. ^^
Second Day
What happened today was that I went through a training by a distributor that's personally signed up by Mark Hughes himself. He was unbelievable. He was him. I really respected Mark Hughes and now I respect him, admire him and love him. He really have a big heart, like Abdul Baha. Dennis Dowell was the distributor, personally trained and signed by Mark Hughes. He really taught me alot. It was great!
After that, we went shopping. Having legs that was going to break anytime, I was happy because it was a once in a life time experience. Oh ya, it really helped me because I did walk and talk. ERm not really. It's shop and talk. Haha... Eventually, I've got few new numbers. It was great!
In conclusion, I had a great fun. I love Herbalife and I wish Jerry can join me too, one day. ^^
=?Enchanted?=
I have learned alot and when I say alot, it really means ALOT!!!
This would be something that's going to drive me somewhere. I know it will.
First Day
It was a fun day of being able to sit near the stage and see everything there that is driving me somewhere. I was in Katherine Yiu and Felan Yu's training. They were school teachers that had a dreams, dreams that wouldn't come true when they had their house on morgage and everything was in instalment. They taught me to be humble, thank your sponsor, be grateful, thankful. Be persistent, consistent and have urgency. I have to make it because it's either I do or die in the biz.
At night, at the cartoon party, I played my role being a cartoon and together we had party, like CRAZEEEESSSSSSSS!! I danced like I never danced and I walked bare footed for 20 minutes with WENDY!! It was a crazy night.
I slept at 4.30am after I completed my 50 reasons to do Herbalife. I did my quota, talk to new people. ^^
Second Day
What happened today was that I went through a training by a distributor that's personally signed up by Mark Hughes himself. He was unbelievable. He was him. I really respected Mark Hughes and now I respect him, admire him and love him. He really have a big heart, like Abdul Baha. Dennis Dowell was the distributor, personally trained and signed by Mark Hughes. He really taught me alot. It was great!
After that, we went shopping. Having legs that was going to break anytime, I was happy because it was a once in a life time experience. Oh ya, it really helped me because I did walk and talk. ERm not really. It's shop and talk. Haha... Eventually, I've got few new numbers. It was great!
In conclusion, I had a great fun. I love Herbalife and I wish Jerry can join me too, one day. ^^
=?Enchanted?=
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