28/1/09

Today's really unlucky day. Wanted to go to Penang but because not feeling well so cancelled. Threw away the bus ticket RM43.35!!!!

Because was drunk yesterday, I vomited half a bucket, purge. Then no more strength and no appetite to eat. Luckily have shakes, if not, definitely will die of no more calories. I lost total of 2kg! Plus was vomiting whole night, I didn't sleep at all. Till now, I've not been sleeping for the pass 48 hours. ^^

Afternoon, have menstruation. This time have cramps because body calories not enough and yesterday took too much alcohol, I guess. The whole person seems drained.

My dear want to break up with me. Yes it hurts but it didn't hurt like before because this is my fault and the alcohol's fault. He don't want to let me see him again.

Yesterday, I could only remember asking him if he doesn't love me anymore because he was yelling at me. My dear is a polite guy, if he yells, means he's very angry. He was very angry with me. I didn't know why.

Today, I finally know. It was because of alcohol, I said alot of wrong things and he wants to leave me. Frankly, until now, I don't know what I've said... T.T (Can anyone tell me the whole story?)

All I know is that he feel humiliated. I just want to make a point here. I really didn't know what I was doing!

Dear, can you please forgive me? I promise you, I will not take any alcohol again. Please...

=?Enchanted?=