I've been wondering for few days because I'm kinda lost. Prayers really helped me alot because I've been given the solution as of what to do and how to do. However, I'm still very scared to achieve my solution.
I've not been talking to him lately because we broke up but I realized that it was really stupid because I feel like a freak not talking. Today, I wanted to talk but I don't know how to talk because I feel more like a freak. It's terrible though.
Princess is a freak now!!! Hate it. I hope I can overcome my freaking attitude as soon as possible.....
Oh ya, guys, please don't try to be the 27 things I've wrote because it's really terrible as not many girls understand the 27 things and not all girls can accept it like I did. Please!!!!!!
=?Enchanted?=
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Sunday, March 2, 2008
Love
I look up to the night sky
as I watch the moon rise
Waiting, and hoping, and wishing foryou
Stars shooting by, right past my eyes
and I can't help thinking of you
Needing you like a child to its mother
Needing only your love and not any other
Needing you with me all through thenight
Needing your comfort to make things alright
Needing you to wipe away my tears
Needing you to hold me, and take away my fears
Needing you to always be there for me
Needing your love to know that you care for me...
You are my life and my reason to live
You share your love, so willing to give
Needing you in my life throughout goodtimes and the bad
All the times to be shared happy and sad...
We both are so strong and our love will live on building and growing after time..
But as time goes by and the affection fade
You'll go your way and I'll go mine
The love was strong but now is fading
As we are never speaking
Who should we love anymore?
If love for human is to ask for more?
God will be the witness
As my love is for His sake
Should I be happy?
Should I be sad?
Should I be thanking?
Or should I just forsaking?
as I watch the moon rise
Waiting, and hoping, and wishing foryou
Stars shooting by, right past my eyes
and I can't help thinking of you
Needing you like a child to its mother
Needing only your love and not any other
Needing you with me all through thenight
Needing your comfort to make things alright
Needing you to wipe away my tears
Needing you to hold me, and take away my fears
Needing you to always be there for me
Needing your love to know that you care for me...
You are my life and my reason to live
You share your love, so willing to give
Needing you in my life throughout goodtimes and the bad
All the times to be shared happy and sad...
We both are so strong and our love will live on building and growing after time..
But as time goes by and the affection fade
You'll go your way and I'll go mine
The love was strong but now is fading
As we are never speaking
Who should we love anymore?
If love for human is to ask for more?
God will be the witness
As my love is for His sake
Should I be happy?
Should I be sad?
Should I be thanking?
Or should I just forsaking?
Honesty in Fasting Month!!!
Today, I've talked to his uncle about me and him; just to be honest, not to be faking... I've realized that I've been searching for reasons and excuses, just to be noble but I'm not. Therefore, the more I tell the same person, the more mixed up I am. Finally, I decided to talk to his uncle about it and he said that he knows what's my problem... BUT because we were playing sms so have to call but then he was sleeping so he'll call me the next day.
What do I really want from him? I'm actually as confused as he is, not knowing if I love him or not anymore and I feel that I'm hiding from him all the while after he said that he wants to be just friends with me.
Now, I just wanna forget about him and let everything because I feel that, since I said that I respect his choice, I should never be too stubborn about it anymore, I give up.
I'll just try my best and be who I am and never seek for any excuses anymore.
Infatuation is what I call it.
What do I really want from him? I'm actually as confused as he is, not knowing if I love him or not anymore and I feel that I'm hiding from him all the while after he said that he wants to be just friends with me.
Now, I just wanna forget about him and let everything because I feel that, since I said that I respect his choice, I should never be too stubborn about it anymore, I give up.
I'll just try my best and be who I am and never seek for any excuses anymore.
Infatuation is what I call it.
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Final Decision..
There was an advertisement regarding a study exhibition to US. To me, it's very important because I tend to leave for US as soon as possible.
What can a girl do when she's saying that she loves a guy very much daily and he had never responded? The only idea that came to my mind was "he wanted me to leave him and I'll do so but I'll still love him forever."
I hope he'll understand my love and the moments I missed, spending with him.
=?Enchanted?=
What can a girl do when she's saying that she loves a guy very much daily and he had never responded? The only idea that came to my mind was "he wanted me to leave him and I'll do so but I'll still love him forever."
I hope he'll understand my love and the moments I missed, spending with him.
=?Enchanted?=
Friday, February 22, 2008
3 days in segamat!!!!
Yesterday, 2 declared in Segamat!!! It's a great news!
We're now having on going book 3 and yet to have book 1 on monday so it's cool~~ Other than that, we're yet to have Bahai Children Class and Junior Youth Gathering this weekend... I'm so happy...
Although I'm sick but I'm still happy and I miss him... Erm, don't wanna mention who...
God Bless me, I love you and you love me... =)
=?Enchanted?=
We're now having on going book 3 and yet to have book 1 on monday so it's cool~~ Other than that, we're yet to have Bahai Children Class and Junior Youth Gathering this weekend... I'm so happy...
Although I'm sick but I'm still happy and I miss him... Erm, don't wanna mention who...
God Bless me, I love you and you love me... =)
=?Enchanted?=
27 Things girls must remember about guys!!!!
1.--Guys may be flirting around all daybut before they go to sleep, theyalways think about the girl they trulycare about.
2.--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
3.--Guys will do anything just to getyou to notice him
4.--Guys hate it when you talk aboutyour ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest.
5.--Boyfriends need to be reassuredoften that they're still loved.
6.--Don't talk about your guy friendstoyour boyfriend.
7.--Guys get jealous easily.
8.--Guys are more emotional than they'dlike people to think.
9.--Giving a guy a hanging messagelike "You knowwhat?!..uh...nevermind.." would makehim jump to a conclusion that is farfrom what you are thinking. And he'llassume he did something wrong andhe'll obsess about it trying to figureit out.
10.--Guys are good flatterers whencourting but they usually stammer whenthey talk to a girl they really like.
11.--A usual act that proves that theguylikes you is when he teases you.
12.--Guys love you more than you lovethem if they are serious in yourrelationships.
13.--Guys think WAY too much. One smallthing a girl does, even if she doesn'tnotice it can make the guy think aboutit for hours, trying to figure outwhat it meant.
14.--Guys seek for advice from girlsnotother guys. Because most guys thinkalike, so if one guy's confused, thenwe're all confused.
15.--When a guy asks you to leave himalone, he's just actuallysaying, "Please come and listen to me."
16.--If a guy starts to talk seriously,listen to him. It doesn't happen thatoften, so when it does, you knowsomething's up.
17.--If your best guy friend seems toavoid you or is never around whenyou're with your boyfriend, he'sprobably jealous and likes you.
18.--When a guy tells you that you arebeautiful, don't say you aren't. Itmakes them want to stop telling youbecause they don't want you todisagree with them.
19--When a guy looks at you for longerthan a second, he's definitelythinking something.
20--Guys don't like girls who punchharder than they do.
21--A guy has more problems than youcansee with your naked eyes.
22--Don't be a snob. Guys can beintimidated and give up easily.
23--Guys talk about girls more thangirls talk about guys.
24--Guys hate rejection, but they hatebeing led on even more.
25--If you are going to reject a guy,just do it. Don't say they are like abrother or just good friends, it justhurts even more. Tell them that youaren't interested in a relationshipand they will respect you.
26--Guys really think that girls arestrange and have unpredictabledecisions and are MAD confusing butsomehow are drawn even more to them.
27--When a guy sacrifices his sleep andhealth just to be with you, he reallylikes you and wants to be with you asmuch as possible.
2.--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
3.--Guys will do anything just to getyou to notice him
4.--Guys hate it when you talk aboutyour ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest.
5.--Boyfriends need to be reassuredoften that they're still loved.
6.--Don't talk about your guy friendstoyour boyfriend.
7.--Guys get jealous easily.
8.--Guys are more emotional than they'dlike people to think.
9.--Giving a guy a hanging messagelike "You knowwhat?!..uh...nevermind.." would makehim jump to a conclusion that is farfrom what you are thinking. And he'llassume he did something wrong andhe'll obsess about it trying to figureit out.
10.--Guys are good flatterers whencourting but they usually stammer whenthey talk to a girl they really like.
11.--A usual act that proves that theguylikes you is when he teases you.
12.--Guys love you more than you lovethem if they are serious in yourrelationships.
13.--Guys think WAY too much. One smallthing a girl does, even if she doesn'tnotice it can make the guy think aboutit for hours, trying to figure outwhat it meant.
14.--Guys seek for advice from girlsnotother guys. Because most guys thinkalike, so if one guy's confused, thenwe're all confused.
15.--When a guy asks you to leave himalone, he's just actuallysaying, "Please come and listen to me."
16.--If a guy starts to talk seriously,listen to him. It doesn't happen thatoften, so when it does, you knowsomething's up.
17.--If your best guy friend seems toavoid you or is never around whenyou're with your boyfriend, he'sprobably jealous and likes you.
18.--When a guy tells you that you arebeautiful, don't say you aren't. Itmakes them want to stop telling youbecause they don't want you todisagree with them.
19--When a guy looks at you for longerthan a second, he's definitelythinking something.
20--Guys don't like girls who punchharder than they do.
21--A guy has more problems than youcansee with your naked eyes.
22--Don't be a snob. Guys can beintimidated and give up easily.
23--Guys talk about girls more thangirls talk about guys.
24--Guys hate rejection, but they hatebeing led on even more.
25--If you are going to reject a guy,just do it. Don't say they are like abrother or just good friends, it justhurts even more. Tell them that youaren't interested in a relationshipand they will respect you.
26--Guys really think that girls arestrange and have unpredictabledecisions and are MAD confusing butsomehow are drawn even more to them.
27--When a guy sacrifices his sleep andhealth just to be with you, he reallylikes you and wants to be with you asmuch as possible.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Segamat?!
I don't really understand why I felt that Segamat was not the place meant for me. It's like I've been trying to come here since Sunday and everyday I'll just meet challenges and will keep delay my days; today, I'm finally here but down with fever, cough and the feeling of vomiting. I don't really get why Segamat dislike me! I don't care, I'll fight for what I had promised! Help the cluster grow!!!!
As of Suraz, I have the confidence. Today, an aunty told me that boys get matured when they are 30 and when they are 16 or around this age, they are like chameleons, changing all the time. That's why, giving you the time is the best!!!! ^^
=?Enchanted?=
As of Suraz, I have the confidence. Today, an aunty told me that boys get matured when they are 30 and when they are 16 or around this age, they are like chameleons, changing all the time. That's why, giving you the time is the best!!!! ^^
=?Enchanted?=
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
A Bad Day...
Well, I wanted today to be a good day but I was left in wound, sick and feeling weak...
I just hope you'll understand that I really love you and would want you to be happy. I'll love you and only you, Ivan. Please trust me and have confidence in yourself.
=?Enchanted?=
I just hope you'll understand that I really love you and would want you to be happy. I'll love you and only you, Ivan. Please trust me and have confidence in yourself.
=?Enchanted?=
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Why are we granted love?
2 months ago, I would answer that it's because God loves us. However, now I would say because we're blessed and took care of by God; He Loves us so he granted love because we attain another virtue thus be who we are meant to be.
I used to play with love for many times because I never knew the meaning of love until someone made me realize that love is something that is unpredictable and not hoping for anything in return.
I fell in love with someone, I think for the first time although I've been in relationships. I was really scared that he would leave me but after time past by and I ponder, I realized that I should let him be what he want to so that he would succeed in his life. I'll just be right here waiting.
I don't expect him to do anything to me as long as I can love him. ^^
Those who were hurt by love before, listen to me. Never ever try to break people's heart, relationships or tend to implant hatred in lovers' eyes to one another, I know who you are. Come'on! Just love a person truthfully and don't do anything.
I used to play with love for many times because I never knew the meaning of love until someone made me realize that love is something that is unpredictable and not hoping for anything in return.
I fell in love with someone, I think for the first time although I've been in relationships. I was really scared that he would leave me but after time past by and I ponder, I realized that I should let him be what he want to so that he would succeed in his life. I'll just be right here waiting.
I don't expect him to do anything to me as long as I can love him. ^^
Those who were hurt by love before, listen to me. Never ever try to break people's heart, relationships or tend to implant hatred in lovers' eyes to one another, I know who you are. Come'on! Just love a person truthfully and don't do anything.
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