I really thought I could let him be just a memory but he came into my dream. All the sweet memories. I swear I didn't think of him the whole day, I swear I wasn't thinking about him before I sleep. But after dreaming of him, I can't stop missing him.
My dear friends, I know you all hope that I can forget him. I know you all think that he's not suitable for me. I know you all want me to live a better life. I promised you all I would and I will. This is my promise and I'll fulfill it.
It's not that I don't want to meet any other guys after him but I need time. Please don't bring me to meet different guys everyday BUT if it's for business then it's ok. ^^
I could smell him. The smell of the cigarettes, he had before we fell apart. I really miss him. Everyone said that it's impossible.
Maybe it's true that it's just puppy love, to everyone. But to me, I never loved anyone like him before. I hope I can love again, this time, not him but my children-Marvin, Jay Scree, Theevi Sri, Yugen and Brethen (future one, if have. ^^). Maybe my future husband will come after this.
It's like the story I read.
A student asked a teacher, “What is love?” The teacher said, “in order to answer your question, go to the wheat field and choose the biggest wheat and come back. But the rule is: you can pick only once and cannot turn back to pick again.”
The student went to the field, go through the first row, he saw one big wheat, but he wanders….maybe there is a bigger one later. Then he saw another bigger one… but maybe there is an even bigger one waiting for him. Later, when he finished more than half of the wheat field, he started to realize that the wheat is not as big as the previous one he saw, he knew he has missed the biggest one, and he regretted.
So, he ended up going back to the teacher empty handed. The teacher told him, “…this is love… you keep looking for a better one, but when you realized later on, you have already missed the person….”
“What is marriage then?” The student asked.
The teacher said, “in order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back. But the rule is: you can pick only once and cannot turn back to pick again.”
The student went back to the corn field, this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he reached the middle of the field, he picked one medium sized corn that he felt satisfied, and came back to the teacher.
The teacher told him, “this time you bring back a corn…. you look for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one you can get…. this is marriage.”
I guess I looked for the just nice but the just nice just didn't think I was enough.
=?Enchanted?=
2 comments:
kawan,
this is a natural to miss him, this is ok to think of him, this all prove you have put effort.
but it is over already,
you once told me about the law of attraction, isn't?
although there is alot of flaw in tat law of atraction, but it does tell something right, be positive.
who know you will pick up the right flower?
there is still so many flower to pick in the garden.
kawan, is time to stop thinking of you, and start to think of others, think like tis, will help. all the best, keat.
keat, is thinking of me or him oh?
I'm starting to go to the hypnotherapist..... ^^ i guess it'll help. ^^
I guess I want to continue as plan, like what i told you the other day. ^^
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