28/2/09

I had a great day. I went dancing in a friend's friend's birthday party. It was filled with smoke and alcohol but still, I stick to my principle, no cigarettes down my throat and no more alcohol trough my lips. ^^ I did it.

It was a great day. Good for a new comer to dance. Love dancing.

Had some experience of people wanted to hook up with me and someone protected me. ^^ I like the feeling of being protected. ^^ I love dancing and today I really had fun. ^^

It's my best time of the week after all those problems I have to solve throughout the whole breakup process. I can chill now!

Other than this, that guy's not bugging me anymore, today. Haha. ^^

Overall, it's an average day. ^^

=?Enchanted?=

SHOCK!

I called my best friend, Rami few hours ago and he suddenly told me, "I may not come to Malaysia. My dad wants me to get married. I'm meeting my fiancee for the second time in 2 weeks."

I was shocked! He have to get married and stay in Saudi!!!

He promised to let me see his wife so he might come to Malaysia with his wife to see me. ^^

I guess she's very beautiful, that's why he want to show off. Haha.

Rami, wish you have a happy marriage. ^^

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Help! Help! Help! Help!

It's driving me crazy!!!!

There's this guy, everyday, he calls me more than 50 times, miss calls me more than 50 times, texts me more than 50 times!!!! I can't work! Sh**!

If he can't get through me, he'll track me everywhere. My house, my working places, places I go! Ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Leave me alone!!

I've scolded him and it seems that he's ignoring it. I've told him to stop and he's becoming worse!!! I think I need to shift! AH!!!!!!! HELP!!!!!!!

He started behaving like this since he know that I don't have a boyfriend! HELP!!!! Other than this, he keeps hinting me on things!! He's now planning to buy a house and want me to shift in to live with him! He's talking to me about wedding, children's names, his family! S*it!

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can anyone suggest me what to do? I can't possibly change my number because it's a business number. so how???????? I've scolded, yelled at him and now I'm running away from him. I've tell him off but he's turning more ON!!! Help!!!!!!

Disgusted by everything has in common with him!!! HELP!!!!! Please Please Please Please!!!!!

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26/2/09

I had an happy day till I had a call. I was scolded. Amy called abroad to encourage me. I'm really happy. ^^

I really thought I could let him be just a memory but he came into my dream. All the sweet memories. I swear I didn't think of him the whole day, I swear I wasn't thinking about him before I sleep. But after dreaming of him, I can't stop missing him.

My dear friends, I know you all hope that I can forget him. I know you all think that he's not suitable for me. I know you all want me to live a better life. I promised you all I would and I will. This is my promise and I'll fulfill it.

It's not that I don't want to meet any other guys after him but I need time. Please don't bring me to meet different guys everyday BUT if it's for business then it's ok. ^^

I could smell him. The smell of the cigarettes, he had before we fell apart. I really miss him. Everyone said that it's impossible.

Maybe it's true that it's just puppy love, to everyone. But to me, I never loved anyone like him before. I hope I can love again, this time, not him but my children-Marvin, Jay Scree, Theevi Sri, Yugen and Brethen (future one, if have. ^^). Maybe my future husband will come after this.

It's like the story I read.

A student asked a teacher, “What is love?” The teacher said, “in order to answer your question, go to the wheat field and choose the biggest wheat and come back. But the rule is: you can pick only once and cannot turn back to pick again.”

The student went to the field, go through the first row, he saw one big wheat, but he wanders….maybe there is a bigger one later. Then he saw another bigger one… but maybe there is an even bigger one waiting for him. Later, when he finished more than half of the wheat field, he started to realize that the wheat is not as big as the previous one he saw, he knew he has missed the biggest one, and he regretted.

So, he ended up going back to the teacher empty handed. The teacher told him, “…this is love… you keep looking for a better one, but when you realized later on, you have already missed the person….”

“What is marriage then?” The student asked.

The teacher said, “in order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back. But the rule is: you can pick only once and cannot turn back to pick again.”

The student went back to the corn field, this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he reached the middle of the field, he picked one medium sized corn that he felt satisfied, and came back to the teacher.

The teacher told him, “this time you bring back a corn…. you look for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one you can get…. this is marriage.”

I guess I looked for the just nice but the just nice just didn't think I was enough.

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Life's beautiful.

Yesterday, I finally put the glass down and let Jerry be just a memory I don't want to remember. Everyone seems so happy about it. I don't know why.

However, I'm so free now. You all ah, keep disturbing me until my freedom, have to be given to you. Haha..

Today, I watched "Fall For You" and I have a different feelings. Only I understand that giving up on someone is really easy.

Just like last month, Jenny from Hong Kong told me. "Su Ling, it's difficult to build something but it takes one blink to destroy it." It is really true. It doesn't take a year to destroy a building but it takes years to build one. Life.

Life's beautiful from today because money comes, VP comes, happiness comes. ^^

Guess what, I'm talking to Raj again. We're having some activities to do together because I always want to serve in short term and he's going to help me. Hooray! ^^ Thanks, my best friend. ^^

My group is growing too. ^^ LOVE ya ALLL!!!

=?no more ENCHANTED?=

22/2/09

I had a great day. I had a calm day too. Many said that I've changed, today.

They said that I'm more calm.
They said that I'm more quiet.
They said that I'm humble.
They said that I'm suspend.
They said that I'm cute.

I went to Muar today and had alot of food. I always wanted to go and finally I'm there, eating. I ate duck rice. I had a little ulcer in the mouth so wasn't really enjoying but I had alot. ^^

Then, I bought alot of food back too. ^^ Ate with Takali, Marvin, Baby and Yugen!!! They're so cute. ^^ Love them so much!!!

I had few appointments only for today but I've earned my living today. ^^

I miss him very much, I have things in mind, I want to tell but I feel that it might confuse him. My friends told me that if I don't tell him, he might hate me more. However, if I tell him the truth and the fact of my worries for the past 2 months, would it make him not hate me?

It's the same in both ways. I guess it's just a confirmation. Nothing matters much now. Money is more important because I may need to support more than one person for the forthcoming one year or maybe 8 months.

SU LING! WORK!!!!

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20/2/09

Today, had a new customer and I realize that it was fun doing Herbalife. I could really help people. It was great! ^^

I was really tired but have no choice. Still have to work my A_ _ off. Had appointments up to 4am! Then woke up at 10am to drive to KL for HOM. Fortunate have a new success builder and 2 new customer. ^^

It's been great! There's something, bothering me really much. I hope it's what I wish for.

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18/2/09

I had been through alot for the day. Life sucks at a point but in the end, the possibility is still there. ^^

Therefore, I try to look at the possibilities rather than challenges and wow! Everything changed and I've got it great!

Oh my God! It's so cool!

I have some problems now which I can't mention here. I'm afraid I would create panic here. =P

I hope it'll all be through.

=?Enchanted?=

14/2/09

I had Valentine but no Valentine's Day, as usual. I bought roses, chocolate and was just giving away to everyone I see, which are singles. ^^ Actually, I give my neighbours, all of them too. ^^

I received some too. ^^ It was funny because I told them, received but rejected. Haha.

It's really working on me. I still have 6 days to go. I'll cherish what I can remember now. ^^

Hope a miracle will happen.

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