2 crazy days.

To talk back, it didn't only sound weird, it felt weird.

Last 2 days, me, my baby and Juliana, just wanted to send Omaima to airport and after that send Juliana back to Nilai. Of course, after that, home sweet home, Melaka. ^^ We left at 7.30am from Melaka to KLIA.

No one could imagine how amazing this adventure could start. Once we reach Nilai, not even 30 minutes, Juliana said that it's an emergency and that we have to leave for PERAK at once!

Due to the emergency, we left for Perak. And we reach after I think 2 hours but i don't know if it's that long.... You'll know why in the end of this post. ^^ The fun thing that happen in Perak is that we stopped in almost every traffic light, asking for directions. But the funny thing is that, at the first traffic light, this happened:

"Hi aunty, how are you? Can you tell me where is Perak?" Then I translated into mandarin to aunty.

"Erm, you are actually in the city of Perak, Ipoh."

I burst into tears of laughter because I knew we were in Ipoh, PERAK too but subconsciously, I translated that question... Haha. Till now, I can still remember that funny moment. Haha.

Then we left for our DESTINATIONs...

Oh ya, in Ipoh, we went to The Lost World of Tambun, Sunway Ipoh City, Jaya Jusco (IPOH), etc.

We didn't go in the Waterpark because we were under budget. And the other two entertainment is UNDER UPGRADING!!!! We bought a 3 for RM10 keychain for each then left for Jaya Jusco. The interesting thing about the Jusco there is that, there's a sale going around everywhere and there's a FOC phone charging booth. ^^

After several hours in Perak, it was going to be midnight and we still couldn't find the person we were searching for and guess what?! We decided to leave for Pulau Pinang instead of Nilai!

I was sleeping the whole 40minutes drive to Pinang but I was told that they saw nice cars, drove of snakey roads, saw hot girls and also a drunk girl that's keep telling my baby where she stays... >.<''' 1.30am, we reach a guesthouse and just lied on the bed and sleep. Then we woke up at 11.55am to check out at 12noon. ^^ We're good customers. ^^

Guess what?! After that, we went around looking for FOOD. We stopped in Nasi Kandar shop and Waleed baby didn't want to eat at all! So we went around and around, looking for the Kassim Mustapha which is in Jalan Chulia. But we didn't find it. After 3 hours, rounding, looking for food, finally, my baby couldn't stand it and he turned crazy due to 2 reason, Penang drivers are CRAZY (it's true, they are really selfich and crazy drivers, even the motorcyclist!) and we cannot find any food which is Halal and for all!

I was having fever on the second day so I was sleeping then we ate in a food court. ^^ The most angry part is that 5 minutes after we left the food court with full stomach, we found Kassim Mustapha!

...and I saw the snakey road and beautiful beaches. ^^ Love Pulau Pinang view but hate Pulau Pinang people! I remember stopping to ask for place to go and eat, they say go here go there but we never found any! STARVED!!! Anyway...

We left for Melaka after that. Oh ya, at the Shell petrol station, one girl ask me how to lose weight... Button respond. ^^

We left for Melaka, under really no budget-no money. But we managed to reach, eat McDonalds and enjoy at 1.30am because my baby did MAGIC!!!!! =p

Overall, it's a crazy adventure. Now we've been to places and coincidently, with the same rented car. Maybe it's just fate. ^^

I'm really happy with the life now. I love you baby. ^^ Thanks alot. ^^

=?Enchanted?=

29/5/09

For the past one week, Weedo and me seems to have something in between. =(

Today, he shouted at me really really loud and I felt really scared. For a second, I felt like fainting. Later in the evening, we were hungry so he went to buy food but he came back after 1 hour plus. I was starving till my stomach's cramping. Then we walked to ATM to withdraw and went for drink. There, he ordered snack and because I told him to save, he got mad and didn't take the snack. Maybe the way I told him to save money was wrong but my intention were good. =(

I feel like crying now. My stomach's cramping and my head's aching. When would my baby understand that I didn't change and I need him even when I don't speak.

How can I let him understand that i just need him to be there for me even when I'm crying out loud and just couldn't stop?

How can i let him understand that sometimes I don't want to talk but I would tell him everything in the world as long as he don't yell at me when I keep quiet?

How do I let him know that I love him more than anything in the world and now I really need his support to be encouraged to start Herbalife again after my great fall?

How can I let him know that I love him so much that words can't say anything of how i feel inside?

Baby, please trust me. =(

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we talked, finally.

After 18 months, last night, me and my mom talked.

I wasn't at all surprised with what she've said. Actually, it was expected already. No idea how it happened but still it happened. I love my mom and I wish to show her everything. Just give me time.

I don't want to brag how I'm going to be doing it. I'll be walking the talk.

Lets see what'll happened after that. ^^

Ya Baha'u'll-abha! May God Bless me! ^^

=?Enchanted?=

The past 10 days...

I have been staying in a house without electricity for the past more than 10 days. I don't know how I could survive being in it, anyway. ^^

I used to be really spoiled but now I'm just having fun to be staying in place I used to be not able to get used to. Living out of own comfortable house is really a new thing I have to get used to. It've been really difficult but I'm getting used to it already.

Many things happened. Many times I grow. Many people I met, get to know and many of them left. I see alot of new things and I feel alot of new feelings. Life is really a magic.

Miracle things I never thought of, started happening. It's like my greater test is starting because God have answered my prayer to give me a new and harder test. It's really miraculous.

Here I am, in the same place I cried, last Saturday and now I'm looking into the laptop, writing my blog. It's really weird.

Why am I just a normal human? I want to change. To live the life to the fullest. Lets be extraordinary by doing what an ordinary person does, do his best in everything.

I have changed?

=?Enchanted?=

22/4/09

Today is my first day of menstruation.. Maybe because I'm too tired, I'm having cramps... T.T

I feel alone now. No one can help me.

I miss those days.

=?Enchanted?=

18/4/2009

I can't believe how long I didn't update my blog. Alot have been happening and I don't know if I can post them here --> privacy and security. ^^

For the past 7 days, it's been a really bad week. I've hurt my baby so many times, I don't know if he understand that when he's hurt, I feel more hurt. I can't believe all this is happening to me. I really love him. Today, he told me that he want to break for few days but he didn't say it.

I feel sadder after hear him saying that. I feel like breaking apart now. My brain and my mind can't connect. What's happening?

I want to break free. Who can I turn to? I don't need a boyfriend, I need a real man.

=?Enchanted?=

18/3/09

It's really a stressful day. After all the work, I wished I could rest but it seems so restless. I promised to help my friend with his assignment and now I have an unsolved problem. I need money. Where should I go? Who should I go to?

Tell me why that it has to be like this. Why is all this so forcefully? Why is this so cruel? Why is this happening to me?

Sometimes, actually all the time, I want to give up but it's just driving me nearer to my goals then you drive me further because of your words. Please let me be free for some time. Set me free.

Who can I turn to now?

=?Enchanted?=

11/3/09

Today, I'm really pissed off. Guess what happened? Somebody stolen my sister's phone from my house! Till now, it's still a mist. I can't do anything. I don't understand what's happening. I feel that it's a great danger. It's either the person who repaired the phone took it or there were someone else.

I'm really pissed off because mom let the suspect go and sister didn't want to report to the police. Yes I know that the police can't do anything but what if someone had another spare keys to my house. What would happen to my family?

Can anyone tell me what should I do? I don't want anyone to harm my family.

=?Enchanted?=

07/3/09

After Jerry's incident, I really thought I could never fall in love with another boy. I guess, I overestimated myself. Now, I understand that everything is fated. If it's yours, it's yours.

Lately, I've spent 10 days out of my house, I still go home everyday but I don't sleep at home. Actually, I try to want to sleep at home but there was no space for me. I don't know how you would feel about me but I know that I don't fancy a home that is like a place to sleep only. I want to feel home.

I have new friends that treats me like family. However, when it comes to problem, I really don't want to bother them because they really can 't help even if I tell. ^^ Anyway, I don't expect them to help me. I just wan them to be happy and see me as a happy person.

Baby, you're so sweet. Today you asked me, "why do you like me?" I really don't know why. I've been thinking of this question too. I guess it's because you have a shoulder that would protect me and you gave me a good, strong first impression. You protected me. Really made me love you.

I don't know if you would love me too. Just hope that you're happy. ^^ Even if you say you want to be just friend. Deep down in my heart, though I don't want to be just friend, but it's ok, as long as you're happy.

=?Enchanted?=